Boy....it's tough being a poor filmmaker....
This has been the first time in over 2 weeks that I've found the time and resources to write a blog. Since my last one, I've been focusing on this telemarketing job to pay the bills, and make ends meet. I've lost focus of why I'm here and what I need to do....why I'm sacrificing just getting by to make make ends meet...it's to make my movies, and get my messages out there.
It would be easy to get a great job, and work it for 20 years until I'm a senior citizen; make a lot of money; have an easy life; but there's more I want out of life than that.
These last couple of weeks, when I get home from working this dinky job, it's been easy to pop open a beer, turn on the TV, and relax for a few hours, wind down and get some rest....but I need to remember why I'm doing all of this....and force myself to mentally get back on track.
It's hard. I'll be honest. It's really hard to keep pushing myself like this. And I'm getting older. Getting more set in my ways. That makes it harder. That's why I have to try even harder.
I keep trying to remember what Tom Hanks said in the film A LEAGUE OF THEIR OWN: "It's supposed to be hard. If it was easy, everyone would do it. It's the hard that makes it great". I have to remember that. Keep focused. It's so hard. But it's supposed to be hard.
Today, I finally have had the time and resources to upload a new online episode of THE X-RATED GRANDMA. This week, I've had a short film play in Texas and Alabama. Next week, a short plays in L.A.; my films have played over 30 festivals so far this year; I'm trying to get my new feature THE X-RATED GRANDMA ready to explode in 2009. And there's more. I just have to find the time to keep working things and get going....
And life continues....
My Mother, Opal in today's new episode of THE X-RATED GRANDMA:
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Sunday, September 14, 2008
The Poor Man Kickin' Along....
Well...another week's gone by....
Times are tough...I'm working this new telemarketing job to pay the bills....it's taking up most of my days....
By the time I get home, I'm pretty drained mentally...it's tought to get things going once I get in the door....
With over 50 websites, each day I try to hit some....but sometimes, I'm just beat and have to let the night go by without getting anything done...
But my Park City days are still paying off...the shorts are still rockin' the fest circuit, I'm building a fan base, editing work, and doing online social networking...trying to get my films out there....
Maybe one day soon, I'll be able to stop working these dinky phone jobs and just work on films....but for right now, I'll just have to live with my film work being seen for free around the world. I've just got to keep doing what I'm doing...and hoping the times will change....
And another week comes....
My Mother, Opal, in THE ACCEPTABLE SIN:
Times are tough...I'm working this new telemarketing job to pay the bills....it's taking up most of my days....
By the time I get home, I'm pretty drained mentally...it's tought to get things going once I get in the door....
With over 50 websites, each day I try to hit some....but sometimes, I'm just beat and have to let the night go by without getting anything done...
But my Park City days are still paying off...the shorts are still rockin' the fest circuit, I'm building a fan base, editing work, and doing online social networking...trying to get my films out there....
Maybe one day soon, I'll be able to stop working these dinky phone jobs and just work on films....but for right now, I'll just have to live with my film work being seen for free around the world. I've just got to keep doing what I'm doing...and hoping the times will change....
And another week comes....
My Mother, Opal, in THE ACCEPTABLE SIN:
Saturday, September 6, 2008
I Love Making My Movies....
This is great....
Simply put, I love making movies. Whether it's a 60 second V-log episode of my Mother on the internet, a 5 minute short film for a film festival, a feature film to get out there in theaters...it doesn't matter to me. As long as I'm able to make a film, declare my independence, and get a message out, that's all I care about.
As a filmmaker, I want to open people's eyes; shock them; make them think, and talk; and expose them to truths they are afraid to see. It amazes me how scared people are to face truths.
I may be broke....working odd jobs to make ends meet, so I can get my messages out there...but I'm living life my way, making movies my way, and finding an audience...
I love my life...
My Mother, Opal, in her new episode of THE X-RATED GRANDMA:
Simply put, I love making movies. Whether it's a 60 second V-log episode of my Mother on the internet, a 5 minute short film for a film festival, a feature film to get out there in theaters...it doesn't matter to me. As long as I'm able to make a film, declare my independence, and get a message out, that's all I care about.
As a filmmaker, I want to open people's eyes; shock them; make them think, and talk; and expose them to truths they are afraid to see. It amazes me how scared people are to face truths.
I may be broke....working odd jobs to make ends meet, so I can get my messages out there...but I'm living life my way, making movies my way, and finding an audience...
I love my life...
My Mother, Opal, in her new episode of THE X-RATED GRANDMA:
Thursday, September 4, 2008
An Unforgettable Week....
Man...I'll tell you....
It's been some week, hasn't it?
It's weird....I've had a lot going on as a filmmaker....like getting ready for our NYC Times Square screening tonight of our new short THE OUTHOUSE, getting our new internet V-log episode of THE X-RATED GRANDMA ready for our Saturday release, promoting our 50 plus websites.....and more....but all of this has kind of taken a back seat for me this week, with all this RNC shit going on....
I just have to take a few moments and write my thoughts of, instead as a filmmaker, as a U.S. liberal citizen...
Everything this week has been jaw-dropping....and simply, a joke, in my opinion...let's begin:
Sarah Palin, simply put, in my opinion, is a joke, and a deliberate tactic by McCain and the RNC to distract people from the issues. They think the American people are so idiotic that they will focus on these 'popularity' tactics with the media, instead of the issues....hey...it worked the last 8 years....why change anything, right?
Last night, for example, with Guiliani and Palin's speeches at the RNC...was a perfect example of the hypocrisy, sexism, racist, demeaning, sarcastic, belittling values of the Republican party. If you watched Guilani's speech, you can probably agree with me how discusting and degrading he was.
Palin comparing herself to Obama? Give me a break...another joke. The new quotes for Palin in the media...'A Star is Born'...'The Perfect Populist Speech'...and the great star quotes go on....hmmmm...seems like there's a new, as to quote McCain, 'Celebrity' in the world....'She's the biggest new celebrity in the world....but is she ready to lead?' Sound familar?
McCain and Palin's refusal to talk about any issues, and just focus on 'character'...well...okay....let's just to the Republican thing, go against what's important to Americans, and just talk about 'character' for a moment....with Palin. Just on the beginning traits....current Alaska corruption investigaions....being involved with the Alaska Independent Party, and supporting succession from the United States....with her overworking her 'hockey mom' image, seems like she's got a pretty dysfunctional family that she has trouble managing...with her blasting out her 'family values', this whole son/grandson rumor, with a lot of Americans (especially me, for one), seems the most important issue to put to bed; because if the rumors become, what I believe, to be true, she is defrauding the government, the public, and the American people... But that's another story....
This whole 'sexist' theme.....it sickens me to the core to watch these hypocritical Republicans this week, whenever a part of the media questions any experience, character or other issues with Palin, the Republicans call it 'sexist'...but boy, last night, they were playing the 'woman' theme hard...this appears to me to really degrade women. The Republicans are really being sexist. And what about the continuous words 'hot', 'hottest' and 'babe' being thrown around by them for Palin? Sounds about as sexist as you could be to me...and coming from the RNC...
To be honest, I'll tell you....if Obama wanted, he could easily be calling the RNC and there spokespeople 'racist'. What would people think if every time a reference was made to Obama's experience, character, values, family and so on....Obama's people came back with 'that's racist'? To me, seems if the Republicans are playing this game, Obama has every right to do this. But you won't see him go there. It's not relevant to the issues, and to what's important to Americans. This seems like a major sexist/racist conspiracy theory to me right now...I could really go on about this topic...but I'll just leave this at that.
'Country First'? This is the theme for McCain/Palin? Seems to me like 'Palin First'. Having no respect for the privacy of her family, values, ethics for her state, experience to step in for McCain as Commander in Chief, let's just throw her out there the beginning of a holiday weekend, keep her in hiding for 5 days shacked up in a hotel room, let the world and media do tabloid buzz as we drill her for a worldwide speech, then present her to the world a week later for the first time, preaching a well-written speech by Bush writers to her choir, coming across with low worldwide expectations as a great speaker, and not give one interview to the media or talk to any press. Seems to me like it's pretty obvious who they're putting first.
I'll tell you...as a filmmaker, I wish I wasn't scrapping to make ends meet. If I just had the money to make my movies, I'd be traveling all over this country right now, filming a lot of things relating to this....
Well...there's my political rant....a rare thing for me to do. Now that I've done it, I'll get out of here and starting working on my film stuff...
Can't wait for the next week.
My Mother, Opal as THE X-RATED GRANDMA:
It's been some week, hasn't it?
It's weird....I've had a lot going on as a filmmaker....like getting ready for our NYC Times Square screening tonight of our new short THE OUTHOUSE, getting our new internet V-log episode of THE X-RATED GRANDMA ready for our Saturday release, promoting our 50 plus websites.....and more....but all of this has kind of taken a back seat for me this week, with all this RNC shit going on....
I just have to take a few moments and write my thoughts of, instead as a filmmaker, as a U.S. liberal citizen...
Everything this week has been jaw-dropping....and simply, a joke, in my opinion...let's begin:
Sarah Palin, simply put, in my opinion, is a joke, and a deliberate tactic by McCain and the RNC to distract people from the issues. They think the American people are so idiotic that they will focus on these 'popularity' tactics with the media, instead of the issues....hey...it worked the last 8 years....why change anything, right?
Last night, for example, with Guiliani and Palin's speeches at the RNC...was a perfect example of the hypocrisy, sexism, racist, demeaning, sarcastic, belittling values of the Republican party. If you watched Guilani's speech, you can probably agree with me how discusting and degrading he was.
Palin comparing herself to Obama? Give me a break...another joke. The new quotes for Palin in the media...'A Star is Born'...'The Perfect Populist Speech'...and the great star quotes go on....hmmmm...seems like there's a new, as to quote McCain, 'Celebrity' in the world....'She's the biggest new celebrity in the world....but is she ready to lead?' Sound familar?
McCain and Palin's refusal to talk about any issues, and just focus on 'character'...well...okay....let's just to the Republican thing, go against what's important to Americans, and just talk about 'character' for a moment....with Palin. Just on the beginning traits....current Alaska corruption investigaions....being involved with the Alaska Independent Party, and supporting succession from the United States....with her overworking her 'hockey mom' image, seems like she's got a pretty dysfunctional family that she has trouble managing...with her blasting out her 'family values', this whole son/grandson rumor, with a lot of Americans (especially me, for one), seems the most important issue to put to bed; because if the rumors become, what I believe, to be true, she is defrauding the government, the public, and the American people... But that's another story....
This whole 'sexist' theme.....it sickens me to the core to watch these hypocritical Republicans this week, whenever a part of the media questions any experience, character or other issues with Palin, the Republicans call it 'sexist'...but boy, last night, they were playing the 'woman' theme hard...this appears to me to really degrade women. The Republicans are really being sexist. And what about the continuous words 'hot', 'hottest' and 'babe' being thrown around by them for Palin? Sounds about as sexist as you could be to me...and coming from the RNC...
To be honest, I'll tell you....if Obama wanted, he could easily be calling the RNC and there spokespeople 'racist'. What would people think if every time a reference was made to Obama's experience, character, values, family and so on....Obama's people came back with 'that's racist'? To me, seems if the Republicans are playing this game, Obama has every right to do this. But you won't see him go there. It's not relevant to the issues, and to what's important to Americans. This seems like a major sexist/racist conspiracy theory to me right now...I could really go on about this topic...but I'll just leave this at that.
'Country First'? This is the theme for McCain/Palin? Seems to me like 'Palin First'. Having no respect for the privacy of her family, values, ethics for her state, experience to step in for McCain as Commander in Chief, let's just throw her out there the beginning of a holiday weekend, keep her in hiding for 5 days shacked up in a hotel room, let the world and media do tabloid buzz as we drill her for a worldwide speech, then present her to the world a week later for the first time, preaching a well-written speech by Bush writers to her choir, coming across with low worldwide expectations as a great speaker, and not give one interview to the media or talk to any press. Seems to me like it's pretty obvious who they're putting first.
I'll tell you...as a filmmaker, I wish I wasn't scrapping to make ends meet. If I just had the money to make my movies, I'd be traveling all over this country right now, filming a lot of things relating to this....
Well...there's my political rant....a rare thing for me to do. Now that I've done it, I'll get out of here and starting working on my film stuff...
Can't wait for the next week.
My Mother, Opal as THE X-RATED GRANDMA:
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