Getting Ready for Park City...

It's a busy time....

Even though I'm dirt poor, working these dinky jobs, we're building a worldwide audience for our crazy films....

15 fest submissions for THE ACCEPTABLE SIN today, getting ready for Slamdance in January, and more...

And life goes on....

My Mother, Opal, and her X-RATED GRANDMA Doritos Commercial:

Another Day, Another Dollar....

Well....

Just finished day 3 of this temp job...we'll see how long it goes...maybe a week, maybe a year...who knows....at least it'll pay the bills while I try to get these movies out there....

Just finished eating some fried potatoes, popcorn and tortilla chips with some spaghetti sauce...and getting ready to konk out early...just chipping away....and trying to live a little life...

It feels good to have this tooth finally pulled...

A New World is Coming....

I'll tell you...this last week has been amazing....

I can't stop smiling about Obama winning. The world is changing. Change is coming. And it's exciting.

This last week's been pretty busy....the election....Opal's court date...getting my tooth pulled...working online promoting these films....having shorts play this weekend in Germany and NYC...getting ready for Park City....getting ready for this new temp job to make ends meet....and more...busy times...

And things keep kickin' along...

Need to Find Time....

I need to find time to get things done....

This is the first time in 3 weeks I've had a minute to get on here and write....just trying to make a living right now, while these short films play a different fest each week...

Need to start getting some more things done....

My Mother, Opal as PHONE SEX GRANDMA:

Wade Johnson Gave Me a Loan

Strippers are looked down on from the rest of society. They are put in the same category as prostitutes and dope dealers. As a result, it is impossible to do some things like "regular" people such as getting a loan at the bank.

Wade Johnson worked at the bank across the street from the State Burlesk Theater in Canton, Ohio. He was a trusting person who gave a break to the underdog.

Wade would come back stage and watch the show. I became acquainted with him this way.

One time I needed some money. He was backstage; and I asked him if he would give me a loan of $1,000.00. He told me to come to the bank the next day; and he would handle it.

I went there the next day. Much to my surprise he gave me the loan with no collateral - only my signature and word. It is pretty funny; but he did not even know my real name until he took my application for the loan. All he knew me by until then was Wild Star.

To make a long story short - I paid back the loan. Later, I found out that he had taken chances on a lot of so-called low-classed people like me.

I told him I really appreciated his trust in me and that I had heard how he helped other people by just taking a chance on their word. He replied, "I haven't been burned yet. They always pay."

Opal as THE X-RATED GRANDMA:

Today as a Filmmaker....

First time in a couple of weeks I've had a chance to get on the internet and write something....spending too much time trying to make a living and make ends meet, and haven't had the time and resources to do much on the internet.

Good things are a'comin'......

My Mother, Opal as THE X-RATED GRANDMA:

Trying to Get Back on Track....

Boy....it's tough being a poor filmmaker....

This has been the first time in over 2 weeks that I've found the time and resources to write a blog. Since my last one, I've been focusing on this telemarketing job to pay the bills, and make ends meet. I've lost focus of why I'm here and what I need to do....why I'm sacrificing just getting by to make make ends meet...it's to make my movies, and get my messages out there.

It would be easy to get a great job, and work it for 20 years until I'm a senior citizen; make a lot of money; have an easy life; but there's more I want out of life than that.

These last couple of weeks, when I get home from working this dinky job, it's been easy to pop open a beer, turn on the TV, and relax for a few hours, wind down and get some rest....but I need to remember why I'm doing all of this....and force myself to mentally get back on track.

It's hard. I'll be honest. It's really hard to keep pushing myself like this. And I'm getting older. Getting more set in my ways. That makes it harder. That's why I have to try even harder.

I keep trying to remember what Tom Hanks said in the film A LEAGUE OF THEIR OWN: "It's supposed to be hard. If it was easy, everyone would do it. It's the hard that makes it great". I have to remember that. Keep focused. It's so hard. But it's supposed to be hard.

Today, I finally have had the time and resources to upload a new online episode of THE X-RATED GRANDMA. This week, I've had a short film play in Texas and Alabama. Next week, a short plays in L.A.; my films have played over 30 festivals so far this year; I'm trying to get my new feature THE X-RATED GRANDMA ready to explode in 2009. And there's more. I just have to find the time to keep working things and get going....

And life continues....

My Mother, Opal in today's new episode of THE X-RATED GRANDMA: